Picture of my brain
No straight lines for me. Here's how my brain feels:
Every year the holidaze throws me for a loop. The husband goes away for ten days around the first of December every year for work. I aim to be done with all things Christmas* before he leaves & preferably by Thanksgiving. It makes us (mostly me) less nuts when he gets back, mentally fried by 12 hour days of work meetings.
Really, he doesn't have the mental acuity at that point for big questions like: does Isobel really need more Polly Pocket toys? Henry's Star Wars obsession is starting to freak me out, is it freaking you out? Did we buy the kids too much stuff? Did we buy the kids enough stuff? Did you buy your mother a present she won't hate? etc.
Shopping to support the economy, and generally making small tasks verrry important is also a great way to avoid doing the work I should be doing - editing Knittyspin, Knitty reviews, and writing BGK2 (due at the publisher Febuary-ish).
I love to avoid, sidestep, procrastinate - a little is good, it creates adrenaline, too much & I'm beating myself up because I'm not even working TOWARD, much less UP to that secret potential everyone envisioned for me while I was growing up.
All of you neurotics out there understand.
Back to the work I must do & maybe a little spinning to keep it light.
*not knitted gifts, those go right up to the 23rd then get overnighted
Every year the holidaze throws me for a loop. The husband goes away for ten days around the first of December every year for work. I aim to be done with all things Christmas* before he leaves & preferably by Thanksgiving. It makes us (mostly me) less nuts when he gets back, mentally fried by 12 hour days of work meetings.
Really, he doesn't have the mental acuity at that point for big questions like: does Isobel really need more Polly Pocket toys? Henry's Star Wars obsession is starting to freak me out, is it freaking you out? Did we buy the kids too much stuff? Did we buy the kids enough stuff? Did you buy your mother a present she won't hate? etc.
Shopping to support the economy, and generally making small tasks verrry important is also a great way to avoid doing the work I should be doing - editing Knittyspin, Knitty reviews, and writing BGK2 (due at the publisher Febuary-ish).
I love to avoid, sidestep, procrastinate - a little is good, it creates adrenaline, too much & I'm beating myself up because I'm not even working TOWARD, much less UP to that secret potential everyone envisioned for me while I was growing up.
All of you neurotics out there understand.
Back to the work I must do & maybe a little spinning to keep it light.
*not knitted gifts, those go right up to the 23rd then get overnighted
posted by jillian at
9:53 AM
4 Comments:
christmas - arrrrgggghh! done nothing so far.
yowza -- I rescind previous emailed invitation! unless you feel it could be a destressing opportunity...
HAHAHAHA.
(that is the laughter of mental illness.)
>same boat, with the exception, I'm in denial!! holiwhaaaaaaaaaaaaaa??
Bloglines hasn't updated you (at least on my computer) for almost a week, so i just got five posts at once (which is not a bad thing, mind you, though I prefer to live in real time).
I feel your holiday pain, especially vis a vis kids' gifts.
I can't even think about holiday knitting. i'm in awe of people who can and do. Yikes.
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